i derive this
peculiar pleasure
from being
unhappy
it keeps me
in a holding pattern
locked in place
like a water pump
it’s always there
sometimes a need
to bring it up
up to the surface
the surface where
things are sticky
and parts hurt
and i get lost
in the pleasure
of difficulty
keeping it there
holding it here
blame is a bandaid
ripping it off
is part of the game
and no less pleasurable
in my deepest
knowing
there is a
point to this
and yet the
delusion
is such a
part of the game
unhappy…
like a joke,
goes with
my last name
swinging from
the chandelier
emotions and
such all in a knot
and yet
the emptiness
pure & utter
emptiness
tucked & stowed
so far & so deep
the din of addiction
i’m lost again
Sad but beautiful. I liked this part alot: in my deepest / knowing / there is a / point to this / and yet the
delusion / is such a / part of the game
sad but beautiful…like life.
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